Waiting for the end, to be able to start again

Not doing so well with this blogging thing this time around, but I will make an effort to get back on it. The gym has been going well and I can feel my strength coming back, albeit verrrrry slowly. It would likely help if I actually ATE something, however my appetite seems to have taken a hiatus. I was at the gym last week and was wearing something I haven't worn in a while, as I walked past a mirror I was shocked at my reflection. I knew I had lost weight, I mean none of my pants fit and a dress I bought at the end of the summer literally hangs off of me like a potato sack, but I guess I never really realized just how much I lost until I saw myself. I wish I could say that my weight loss is a result of hard work, but I can't. Constant stress has my heart racing 24/7 and my complete lack of appetite are more likely the cause. I am afraid that once things settle down in my life, the weight will start creeping back on. In fact, I know it will. I suppose the best plan of attack is to play defense and clean things up now. Ok, well after the holidays maybe, that in itself brings a lot of stress to the best of people.

At the beginning of this year, I felt that this was going to be a year of change. Well, turns out I was right, unfortunately the change was not what I expected. In fact so much has changed in my life one could say it is the beginning of a new life. 2009 has been a year of crap and turmoil and I am anxious for it to be over. I have been lucky in that I still have my health and those I love still have theirs. My life is only as good as I make it to be, so my plan for 2010 is to start focusing on me, doing things that make me happy and making my life the best it can be. I believe that nothing but good can come from this. It is so easy to float through life and let others influence your happiness, but ultimately true happiness comes from within. Pretty deep thoughts for this early in the morning!

With that in mind, I am looking forward to the new year and have high hopes for what it will bring. I do not believe in New Years Resolutions, I prefer to set goals and I plan on spending these last few weeks of this year deciding which goals I should work towards and how I plan on achieving them. For one, I want to start running again. It has always been a dream of mine to be able to run a marathon, not sure I will be able to reach this goal this year, but maybe I could aim for a half marathon. I also want to get back into drawing and painting. I have done a little in the last few months, but I would like to do more. And damnit! I want to be able to bench at least 100lbs! So close, yet so far still...

Picking Myself Up and Dusting Off

It has been a fairly long hiatus from blogging, I even contemplated scrapping the whole thing. However, I enjoy it so, we will give it a go once again. Life has done a total somersault and has landed me on my head, it has taken a while but I am slowly getting back on my feet. Not, of course, without a few trips and stumbles along the way. Training has been sporadic for the past few months, between moving, illness and life in general I have been slow to get back on track. However, it seems like I am getting there once again. Diet.... well, suffice it to say it needs work. On the bright side, I have lost about 15lbs, sadly I think a lot of that is muscle. I have been slow to bring my weights back up, jumped in too quickly and crippled myself for nearly a week! Lesson learned.

My focus for now is to clean up my diet and eat more protein, become more consistent with my training and work on getting more cardio done. I also need to focus on using my foam roller on my legs and stretching more as I am starting to have issues with my knees once again. Hmmm, I think it may be time to visit my massage therapist once again!

She's ALIVE!

Yes, I am alive! Things have been pretty crazy busy lately and I have so much to say. A few weeks ago, the company I work for announced that they are splitting into two separate companies. We were all told that this was an opportunity for growth, a good thing, and we were all guaranteed to keep our jobs. The only change would be that some departments that currently serve both units, will have to be split. So, in the end the only change to our jobs would be; which company we work for and where our desks were located. Because I work in Accounts Payable, I am in one of the departments that will be greatly affected by this split. Our team will be divided into two groups; one group per company. We were told that we would know which company we would be working for within a weeks time. A week passed and then we were told that we would not know until the end of June. I suppose I should also add that this split is to be effect July 2nd. Talk about giving us notice! At this time we were informed that there was a possibility that some positions may be cut. That didn't really sit all too well with me. But so be it, nothing I can do. In the meantime, there was a lot of work to do to get ready for the split, so overtime had been approved. I have been working as much overtime as I can get in and banking all the hours. Once July comes around and if I still have a job, then I will end up with extra days off. If I find myself unemployed, then I will be paid out the banked overtime which would help pay cover some bills. I was also just informed this week that the holidays that I had booked for the beginning of July have been cancelled. I expected it. The timing on my holidays is not exactly ideal considering the split is to happen on July 2nd. In any event, I have been spending more time at work and less time in the gym.

As I mentioned I have not been to the gym much lately, nor have I been training for my 10km run as much as I should be either. I did manage to get a great deal on a used treadmill which arrived this past Tuesday. However, I have yet to try the thing out. I really need to get my act together on this, but with all the overtime I have been working I have been so tired by the time I get home, the thought of going for a run is not as appealing. Speaking of the race, I have almost met my target of raising $500! I am expecting a few more pledges so I am positive I will make it. In case anyone needs a refresher of what this race is for, it is to raise money for cancers below the waist. This is something that I feel fairly strongly about since Wes's mom and her boyfriend have both been diagnosed with colorectal cancer. Both have been treated, and so far his mom has been cleared. Unfortunately, we recently found out her boyfriend has not been so lucky. So if anyone would like to donate to a great cause, you can sponsor me here! http://ed09.uncoverthecure.org/goto/Danielle.Chabot

Switching gears here, 'summer' is on its way and that means gardening! I use the term 'summer' loosely as the weather has not been exactly stellar. This is only my second year planting a vegetable garden so I am still learning. I had always heard that you should have everything planted by May long weekend; so this is what I did. Two days later this is what I woke up to....

I covered all my plants with coffee cans in an attempt to prevent them from freezing. However the forecast for the following days was near freezing, so I left them covered. Once the temperatures turned around I removed the cans and was happy to see everything had made it. The plants were a little wilted as they needed watering, so I watered them. Within the following two days, they went downhill. Turns out keeping them covered from the frost and snow was one thing, however plants also need light! My tomatoes ended up looking like dead sticks, the basil was toast and my lettuce looked pretty pathetic. I refused to pull the plants without at least TRYING to get them to come back. The basil is gone, the lettuce has recovered and I see new growth on the tomatoes. Hopefully, they will actually produce something! If all goes well, I should have a nice crop of tomatoes, lettuce, swiss chard, zucchini, cucumbers, carrots, parsnips, potatoes, peas, dill, thyme and cilantro. As long as I can keep Mister Diamond from using my garden as his personal litter box, all should go well!

Well, my little darling Taylor has been hounding me to use the computer, so I will sign off for now and I promise not to wait so long for my next post!

MIA

I have been MIA for a bit, not much to say aside from posting my workouts, which can get a little boring. I trained yesterday and it sucked. I felt weak and shaky and just wasn't into it. So, I think I need to take a bit of a break. I may try to go sometime this weekend, but if that doesn't happen I will hold off until next week. In the meantime, I am going to try to get more running in. I did manage to borrow a treadmill, so that will help especially on the nights that Wes works and I cannot get out of the house to go for a run. I used to run in the mornings and I loved it, but I just cannot seem to drag my butt out of bed any earlier then I already do.

Oh, it is the middle of May and it snowed last night. I just love living here.

Head in the Sand

Not much to say. Sometimes it is easier to keep your head in the sand...

Workout for Wednesday

Hip mobility and glute activation

RDL 115/125/135/145/165lbs x 5 (Definitely a personal record here)
Leg Press 270 lbs x 10 x 3
Split Squat 75 lbs x 12 x 2 - need to up my weight next time
Standing Cable Crunches 70/80/80lbs x 10


Cardio has been a complete joke this week, so has the diet end too. I am looking at buying a treadmill because I cannot seem to get the time to get out and run. If I don't pull up my socks I am going to fall flat on my face at the 4 km mark.

Ketchup

Or I suppose I could say, Catch Up. I have missed posting a couple workouts, so here they are...

Workout of Tuesday, April 28

Hip Mobility and Glute Activation Stuff

Full Squat 115/125/135/145/155lbs x 5 (I think this is a personal record for me)

Barbell High Step Ups 65 lbs x 8 x 3

Leg Press 270lbs x 10 x 2

Med Ball Crunch 15 x 3

Workout for Sunday, May 3

Bent over Flyes 10lbs x 12 x 3

Lying 1-Arm DB Protractions 20 lbs x 20 x 2

Pull down 75 lbs x 12 x 2

Scap Push Up 20 x 2

Military Press 45/55/60/65/70 lbs x 5

I think I used up all my energy on my presses, because everything else sucked.

Chin Up BW x 5 x 4 (Was supposed to do 5 sets, but couldn't get the last set out)

Seated Cable Row 90 lbs x 8 x 3

Incline DB Press 2o lbs x 12 x 2

Shoulder Roll 10 x 3

I finally made it outside to run. My friend came over on Saturday and we went for a run after dinner. Bad idea. We did about 30 minutes and I am going to guess around 2km. My Nike+iPod sensor said 3.36km, but I have not calibrated it to my stride yet. I could have gone further, but I was getting such bad acid reflux every time we would start running, I had to stop. I knew running after eating was not the best idea. Anyway, aside from the reflux, the run went pretty good. My friend and I run well together, since we both have short legs, but dang do my calves hurt. I have been stretching and massaging them for the past two days. I even found myself massaging them in my sleep. My massage therapist has started massaging my calves and let me tell you, that hurts like nothing else! I thought getting your glutes worked on was bad, but I think this just about takes the cake, for me at least. I have never really had my calves massaged, and I never really liked it, but I can see that I am going to have to get past that because they are pretty tight and tender.

Overall, I had a great weekend. On Friday, a friend and I went for dinner then to see a play. We had both seen the playbill for this play last fall and commented that we would really like to see it. So for her birthday in February, I bought us tickets. It was a great play. Afterwards, we met up with a bunch of our friends at a bar for a few drinks. The weather this weekend was great too. We were able to spent most of the weekend in the yard. Yesterday, I did yard work from 9:00AM to 3:30 PM, Wes stayed out longer. The yard looks really good and I got a bit of color too.

Bus Surfing

Bus Surfing is a new workout I have devised. It is pretty simple, and all you knee is a city transit bus and a pair of shoes. Level 1 starts with you wearing a sturdy sneaker type shoes that provides a lot of support. You walk onto the bus and find a horizontal railing, that is about waist high. Do not use the rail on the top, that will come is more advanced levels. With both hands, get a firm grip of the railing and take half a step away from the railing. You do not want to lean on it. Once you have a good hold, prepare for the bus to start to move. You generally want to get into this position as quickly as possible, as there are some bus drivers who prefer the "Stop-and-Go" method, and will pull away from the curb before the doors have even closed. Once the bus is in motion you will hold your torso tight and strong and shift your weight from one foot to the other as the motion of the bus takes you. I generally find a wider stance to be more effective. Your arms should be strong and you will hold yourself upright. The goal of this level is to successfully complete the bus route with minimal movement. Once you have achieved this, you are ready to move on to Level 2.

Level 2 is the same as Level 1 except you will hold on to a pole this time, again with 2 hands. In Level 3 you will learn how to complete a bus route one handed! There are times where you will be unable to use both hands; whether it is because the bus is so crowded you can only steal enough of a railing for one hand, or maybe you are holding a coffee in the other hand. I highly recommend you learn this on both a railing and a pole, because sometimes you do not have a choice. In Level 4 we kick it up a notch and change our shoes to heals. Smaller heals at first, but then you can work your way up to stilettos if you wish. Depending on how strong your core and legs are, you can start with using the 2-hand grip, but if you feel strong enough, you can move directly to the 1-hand grip. Heals are tricky and you may spend a lot of time on this level, but I suggest you master it, before moving on to level 5. In Level 5 we move down towards the middle of the bus, where the only place to hold on to it the bar along the top. The bars usually have soft rubber loops that hang down every couple feet along the bar. Their purpose is to accommodate the shorter passengers who cannot reach the top bar. In Level 5 we will use our sturdy shoes again, and we will raise both our arms to the side and firmly grasp a bar with each hand. You will definitely notice you are using you upper body muscles a lot more. For Level 6, we do the same as Level 5 except we switch our shoes to heels again. In Level 7, we move back into our sturdy shoes and you will firmly hold the top bar with ONE hand. When you are comfortable, try this with heels. Level 8, you will hold onto the rubber loops, one in each hand to either side of you. If you feel ready to start off with heels, go ahead. But don't worry if you need to try this a couple time with your sturdy shoes.

Once you have mastered your balance with the loops, you can move on to Level 9. In Level 9, you will only hold on to ONE loop. Start off with sturdy shoes, and take your time working up to heels. There is the potential for injury here, to either yourself, or other passengers on the bus. Level 10 in the final level, and only Elite Bus Surfers has mastered this level. In Level 10, you will complete the route with NO hands. You cannot hold onto anything. If you can complete Level 10 in 6" Stilettos, you will have obtained Elite status.

So good luck to you all and Happy Surfing!

My Christmas Wish List....

I figured with all the snow and beatiful winter weather we have been having, I should get my Christmas wish list together. That was sarcasm, in case you didn't recognize it.

Well I did it. I ran on the treadmill at lunch, and I didn't die. Ok, so I only managed 25 minutes (due to time constraints), but it felt good. I bought some new running shoes yesterday and they are so comfy. I also bought a Nike+iPod Sensor. I haven't had a chance to check it out in depth, but from what I can tell you stick one part in the sole of your shoe and the other end plugs into your iPod. It will track your distance, pace and calories burned. Pretty cool hey? I am stoked about running again. Hopefully I can keep that enthusiasm.

I went for a massage last night after the gym. My therapist focuses mostly on my legs, and has been working on my knees. Since I started seeing her, I have noticed the pain in my knees has been diminishing. She massaged the crap out of my calves and butt. It actually feels like I did a leg workout yesterday instead of an upper body workout. Today is lower body, and I am already sore.

Workout
Face Pulls 70lbs x 12 x 3
Scap Pushups 20 x 2
Pulldown Scap Depression 70lbs x 12 x 2
Tricep Pressdown 70lbs x 12 x 2

Bench Press 45/55/65/85/90 lbs x 5
Bentover BB Row 65/75/80/85/90 lbs x 5
Standing DB Shoulder Press 25lbs x 8 x 3
Pulldown 90lbs x 12 x 2
Poorboy Shoulder Horn 10lbs x 15 x 2

Searching for my Marbles

I think I have lost a few of them. I agreed to run a 10 km race with my friend on June 20th. The race is called Underwear Affair and we will run the race in our skivvies. I have to raise $300 in order to qualify to race, that alone frightens me, because I hate asking for pledges. The race is to raise funds for cancers below the waist, hence the underwear theme. I used to run, years ago before Taylor. I loved running, I loved the runner's high. I did an 8km road race about 6 years ago and have not really run since. I also ended up with pain in my IT band, which is what prevented me from continuing. Hopefully, this time around I can be a little more diligent in stretching and massaging my IT band, and be able to ward off any knee injuries. I am scared and excited for this. Scared that I am going to fall flat on my ass around the 2 km mark (or really any time during the race), and I am afraid I will not be able to raise enough money for the run (although, I could top it up if I had to, I just don't really want to). But I am excited at the challenge and at the prospect of getting back into running again, and to be able to do this with a really close friend. Now, I just have to figure out how I am going to try to squeeze in the training for this, into the rest of my schedule. I will likely have to cut out some of my strength training sessions and do running instead. Oh well, nice change. Actually, before my friend even asked me about it, I had been toying with the idea to attempt a triathalon. I think the 10km race is a better option, since I really don't know how to swim.

Workout for Sunday
Glute activation and Hip Mobility stuff

RDL 95/105/115/135/145lbs x 5
Leg Press 270lbs x 10 x 3
Split Squat 75lbs 12 x 2
Cable cross chop 30lbs x 15 x 2 (I really have no idea what the name for this exercise is, so this is what I have called it. I know what I am talking about)

Esplanade (v.), to attempt an explanation while drunk

I had a pretty good workout at the gym yesterday, I even got in a bit of cardio. My legs and arse are still very sore, so I will not be training lower body until Sunday. I may have the opportunity to get there tonight and if I do, I will do a long cardio session and maybe some isolated weight training. Oh, and definitely a lot of stretching!

Workout

Bent over Flyes (DB) 10lbs x 12 x 3
Lying One Arm DB Protractions 20 x 20 x 2
Pulldown 75lbs x 12 x 2
Scap Push Up 20 x 2

Military Press 45/50/55/60/65lbs x 5
Chin Up BW x 5 x 5
Seated Cable Rows 105lbs x 8 x 3
Incline DB Press 25lbs x 12 x 2
Alt. Front Raise 10 x 12 x 2
Shoulder Roll 10 x 3

Kinky Cushions

OMFG! I feel like someone has done the Mexican Hat Dance on my arse! I have been training, honestly, I just have not gotten around to posting my last 4 or 5 workouts, no point in doing it now. I did a deload program last week and have started back on a 5 x 5 plan (or something along those lines). Last night was lower body, and I really didn't think I was doing that much more then I usually do, but I obviously pushed myself because I HURT! I was hurting and stiff and felt like barfing by the time I left the gym. For the rest of the night, my entire body felt like it was quivering and weak.

Workout

Glute activation and hip mobility work

Full Squats 95/105/115/125/135 lbs x 5
BB High Step Up 75 lbs x 10 x 3 (these were the buggers that fried my ass)
Pullthroughs 90lbs x 12 x 2
Standing Cable Crunch 70lbs x 10 x 3

In other news..... A couple weeks ago, I finally went and saw an orthodontist about possibly getting braces again. I say again because I had braces when I was 15. I only had them on my front 6 teeth and only for less then 4 months. Unfortunately, the wire holding everything in place broke and my dentist at the time did not feel it needed to be fixed. Fast forward 17 years and my teeth are now back to where they were. Actually, they have been this way for a while. So, I went for my consultation expecting to hear that I would be able to get Invisaline braces (clear molds that don't even look like braces) and in less then 6 months I would have a pretty smile. I was pretty disappointed when I left there with 3 treatment options, none of which was what I was hoping for. The treatement options ranged from regular braces for 9 months on top teeth only for a little over $2500 to full braces top and bottom, extraction of two top teeth and jaw surgery which would run me $15,000. The latter option would straighten my front teeth, correct my overbite and recenter my jaw (which is apparently offside). I do have ortho coverage, but not enough to cover everything aside from Option 1. Sooooo, I am going with Option 1, which will just straighten my top teeth. For as much as I am not really looking forward to looking like a 15 year hold again, I am looking forward to getting the process started and finally getting my teeth straightened.

Take Two!

Today is the start of a new challenge. This one does not have any prizes, it is mainly for motivation. I found that logging the daily details and taking measurements and pictures on a regular basis, really helped me stick with it during the last challenge. So that is why I am doing this again. This one runs from April 20 to July 19. I have a feeling this one will be a little more difficult. My current weight has been my sticking point for a few years now. I may make a brief appearance below that, but it never lasts. This time I want to break that barrier once and for all. The weight loss is only about 6-7 lbs but, knowing myself I know I need to make this goal feel achievable. I know this is likely more of a mental block then a physical one. Anyway, this time around I have some support a little closer to home; two of my friends are doing this challenge with me. They will weigh in and take progress pictures with me for the next 3 months. I am excited. Tonight I took my pictures and measurements and I am embarrassed to say that I have put on almost all the weight I had lost. HOWEVER! I know I am retaining a lot of water right now and my body fat % is still the same as it was on the last day of the previous challenge. So, I think I actually only put back on a few pounds, which I am not going to dwell on as I knew full well I was eating total crap for almost two weeks. I can feel it too. My mood has been more volatile, I am crampy and gassy and all around bloated. Yuck!

BAHHH! Take it or leave it!

I have spent WAY too much time trying to get these damn pictures up! Sorry they suck, but it is the best you're going to get!

Here I am!

I am here, really I am. Things have been pretty busy with work and life lately, and I just haven't had the time to blog. For a quick update, I finished the challenge on April 3rd and came in second place! I missed posting my last two workouts from the challenge, and then I took last week off from training to give my body a break. I also took the week off of anything healthy.... I have been eating whatever I feel like and let me tell you, I sure as hell notice a difference. I am bloated, constipated, moody.... I have never felt so yucky. You would think that would be enough to make me stop eating the junk, but I haven't. Easter was this past weekend, and I enjoyed all the chocolates and turkey dinner and I have been paying for it for the past two days. Oiy.... heartburn.... I have been trying to post my before and after pictures, but I have been having difficulties adding more then one picture at a time. I will try again tonight maybe. I am actually shocked at the differences, I cannot believe I was that, erm, 'fluffy'. A couple of my friends were so inspired by the changes I made, they have both decided to join me on the next challenge. The next challenge starts April 20 - July 20. This one doesn't have any prizes, except bragging rights, but I found the last one to be so helpful in making me stick with it. Anyway, that is all for now, I will try to get pictures posted soon!

shitcan bacon

Not much happening, so I am just going to post my last two workouts.

Monday's Workout
Glute activation and Hip mobility work

Front Squats 95/105/115/125/135lbs x 3
Back Extension 25lbs x 8 x 3
Bulgarian RDL (DB) 20lbs x 12 x 2
Cable Cross Chop 30lbs x 10 x 3

Tuesday's Workout
Lateral Flyes 12.5lbs x 12 x 2
Lying BB Scap Protractions 65lbs x 15 x 2
Seated Scap Depressions 12 x 2
Face Pulls 70lbs x 12 x 2

Push Press 45/50/55/65/70lbs x 3
Pull Ups 1 band x 6 x 3
Seated Cable Rows 90lbs x 12 x 2
Incline DB Press 30lbs x 8 x 3
Shoulder Rolls 15 x 2

Chitty Chitty Bang Bang

Well, it is Monday again. I had a fairly decent weekend, but it was over much too fast. Yesterday, Taylor went to a birthday party with one of our friends, so Wes and I took the opportunity to go to the gym together. This is something that rarely happens. That morning when Tay got up, she had a bit of a fever, so I gave her some Motrin and shortly after she seemed fine. However, once she got to the party her fever returned. She was lethargic and feverish and pretty much spent the entire time there, cuddled up on someones lap or sleeping in a bed made from coats. So, we ended up cutting our workout short and I didn't manage to get every thing done. Oh well. Diet was poop all weekend. No valid excuse aside from I just wanted it, so I had it! Shame on me. 5 days left in this challenge and I am feeling pretty good. While I know I may not have achieved all my goals and I didn't follow my plan to a T, I still feel that I was successful. I guess my ultimate goal was to be able to shed some pounds while maintaining a healthy diet. 'Maintaining' is the key word here. I do not believe in diets. I do not want to lose weight by eating such a restricted diet that I am unable to maintain that diet indefinitely. Because once you go back to eating 'normal' you will just put that weight back on. In hindsight, I guess my real goal was to achieve a healthy relationship with food, find a new 'normal' and I think I have and even better, I think I may have influenced a few people along the way. Once this challenge is over, I will continue to track my weight and measurements and take those dreaded progress pictures, because I have found that is what is helping me stick with this. I have my treats once in a while, but for the most part everything I eat is pretty 'clean' (for lack of a better word). I do not feel deprived at all, I feel satisfied. Yay for me!

Workout
Band pull aparts 12 x 2
Scap Push Ups 20 x 2
Behind Neck Band Pulldown 12 x 2
Skull Crusher (DB) 12.5 lbs x 12 x 2

Bench press 65/75/85/95/95 lbs x 3 - dang it, I wish I could push past this!
Bentover BB Row 85 lbs x 6 x 3
Standing DB Shoulder Press 25 x 8 (should have been 2 sets of 12, but we had to leave, so I grabbed the 25s and did what I could)

Great SMURF!

I am getting really tired of the snow. It is the end of March for crying out loud, it shouldn't STILL be snowing. I need spring to come.

I managed to do cardio at lunch yesterday, but I think all this cardio is wreaking havoc on my leg. When I went to train after work, my right hip flexor started to really bother me. By the time I was done, it was very painful to lift my leg up to take a step. That is also the same leg that I have been having issues with me knee. When I got home, I did some foam roller work and a bit of stretching. It is not as tight today, but still tender. My knee doesn't hurt as much, I just get a dull pain occationally. So, I will skip cardio at lunch today to give my leg a break.

Workout

Glute Activation and Hip Mobility work

Warm Up CDL 115/125 lbs x 5
CDL 145lbs x 5 x3
Leg Press 200 lbs x 12 x 2 - I am such a dumb ass. I finished my two sets and thought the weight felt super easy. When I looked back in my book I realized the last few times I did these, I had been using 230 lbs. So yeah, it was easy because it was 30 lbs lighter then I usually lift. d'oh!
Bulgarian Squat (BB) 70 x 8 x 3
Standing Cable Crunch 70 lbs x 10 x 3

Grumpy Pants

Yup, I'm grumpy. I had no motivation at work to do anything today, and anything I did do didn't seem to go smoothly. Also, my best friend is hurting and I am pissed at the whole situation. Pissed off I can't do anything to make it better, pissed off I can't help more and pissed off that this situation has taken her smile away. On the bright side, this anger helped fuel my workout tonight AND I did cardio at lunch. Woohoo for me! The chicken stew I made last night was excellent! Definitely going to make that one again and I am happy I made a double batch.

Workout
Lateral Raise 12.5lbs x 12 x 2
Lying DB Protraction 20lbs x 20 x 2
Seated Scap Depressions 12 x 2
Face Pulls 70lbs x 12 x 2

Push Press 45/50/55/60/65 lbs x 3
Pull Ups 1 band x 6 x 3
Seated Cable Row 90lbs x 12 x 2 - I am pretty happy with this, nice to see the weight going up
Incline DB Press 30lbs x 8 x 3
Poorboy Shoulder Horn 12.5 lbs x 10 x 3

Hardcore Monkeys

Life has kept me busy lately. Work was pretty crazy last week, I even managed to work 4 hours of overtime. The last day I trained was Friday. On Saturday, Wes and I took a bus trip to Jasper for a weekend snowboadring. It was a ton of fun. We lucked out and the conditions were the best they have had all year. I am getting better at this snowboarding thing. I still stick to mostly green runs and the odd blue one, but I am just trying to work on my turns and get my confidence up. I would like to go one more time this year, but with only about a month left in the season, we'll have to see how that plays out. I am still working on getting my bindings and stance set up, so that my feet don't cramp up. It is coming. After a day on the hill together, we came back to our hotel and had a jacuzzi bath and a 3 hour nap. Afterwards, we went out for dinner, then checked out 3 different bars and had a few bevies. Sunday, we were back on the hill. It was so nice to spend that time alone together. It has been a while.

Less then two weeks left in the challenge and I need to work on getting more cardio in. I actually did manage to make it to the gym yesterday at lunch and did a HIIT session. Talk about killing my legs. Leg workout Friday, snowboarding Saturday and Sunday, then interval training Monday! My knee has started bothering me again, I know I need to get my act together and do more stretching. I should know better by now.

Diet was totally off plan these past few days and the one thing I am starting to notice is that I think eating crap effects my mood. The last few times I went off plan for more then two days, I noticed a definite decrease in my mood the days following. This is something I will have to monitor a little more.

With that in mind, I decided it was time to try a new recipe. In this month edition of Clean Eating, there is a recipe for Chicken and Vegetable Stew. So, tonight I made a double batch. Kinda hoping it is good, seeing as I made so much! I will let you know the verdict tomorrow.

Workout for Friday

Glute Activation and Hip Mobility work

Front Squats 95/105/115/125/130lbs x 3
Back Extensions 25lbs x 8 x 3
Bulgarian RDL (DB) 20lbs x 12 x 2
Medicine Ball Twist 18 lbs x 10 x 3

Sofa King We Todd Did

I saw the funniest thing at the gym last night. I was watching a guy do set after set of chin ups and pull ups. He had some pretty nice arms and his chest looked nicely developed, but that is where it stopped. I swear my arse and legs had to be bigger then his! It looked freakin hilarious! Why do some guys spend all their energy training their upper body and neglect their legs? They must not realize how retarded they look walking around on toothpicks for legs. You know, women like to check out guys butts too, it is not all about the chest! It is kinda like those women who neglect to do anything with the back of their hair. It looks funny.

My workout was good and diet was on, still no cardio this week. Work has been crazy busy and I have not been able to get away from my desk at lunch to do cardio. I am hoping that next week I will have more success at that, since my co-worker will be back from holidays so I should be so swamped and may actually be able to take a lunch.

Workout
Band pullaparts 12 x 2
Scap Push Up 20 x 2
Behind Neck Band Pulldowns 12 x 2
Skull crusher (DB) 15lbs x 12 x 2

Bench Press 65/70/75/85/95lbs x 3 -I have been benching the same amount for a while now, but cannot seem to make any gains. It is getting a little frustrating.
Bentover BB Row 95lbs x 6 x 3
DB Shoulder Press 17.5/20/20 lbs x 8 - I think I can go up in weight the next time. I need to get these dang shoulders to grow!
Supinated Grip Lat Pulldown 90lbs x 11 x 2 - I don't like these. I was supposed to do 12 reps, but my wrists were burning and I was losing my grip, even with my straps. I cannot get my wrists straps set up the way I usually do, being that my grip is reversed, so the straps are not as effective as they usually are. I have a pathetically weak grip.
Lateral Raise (DB) 15lbs x 10 x 3

Not long ago, I picked up the most recent copy of Clean Eating magazine and in it there is a 2 week menu plan with recipes and a grocery list. I was looking it over last night and it seems pretty doable. I have 2 weeks left in this challenge and I think this plan might be a great way to finish it off. The one thing I have learned since I started this challenge back in January is that is that this whole eating thing is a lot easier then I thought. It just requires some creativity and a lot of planning. I still have a treat once in a while, so I really don't feel all that deprived. Yes, I have had my binges and rough patches, but I don't let that throw me completely off track like I used to. In fact, I don't think I have ever stuck with anything this long before. Once this challenge is over, I do not think it will end for me. I will keep going, tracking my progress, taking my measurements and see what I can do.

Happy Moron

So tired today. I even went to bed early (ok, earlier) last night, but it was still a struggle to drag my butt out of bed. Diet was good yesterday, but I didn't realize the lettuce I had wasn't good anymore, so I didn't bother buying more when I picked up groceries on Saturday. Thankfully, there is a little market/restaurant downtown here that has a salad bar and is rather affordable, so I will get my salad there today. I am so busy at work lately. I was in half an hour early yesterday, worked through my lunch and stayed an extra 1.5 hours after work. So, I didn't get any cardio done, nor did I manage to get any training in. Probably a good thing, since I am still a little sore from this weekends workouts. I will train today though, and I am looking forward to it. I think Wes and I are going snowboarding this weekend, YAY! I have been pushing for this, since I spent all that money on a new board etc, I don't want to lose what I have learned, or have my board collect dust like my old one did. Plus, it will be nice to have some time alone together for a change, it has been a while.

Oh, and I forgot to mention, I have some nice bruises on my buttocks from the wicked massage I had on Saturday. I am not complaining.

Licorice Hillbiliies

My diet has been a complete bust these past 4 days. I just don't know what got into me lately. I feel like I have a bad case of PMS or something. I have been so moody and emotional, and craving garbage. I need to get more organized and have more food prepped. I think it is time to browse through my cookbooks again. Wes and my friend noticed I have been going through a bumpy patch, so they surprised me with booking a massage for me on Saturday afternoon. Oh.My.GAWD. That was one of the best massages I have ever had. She worked on my legs a lot and that felt fantastic! Afterwards, my friend asked if Tay could sleep over, so I ended up with a free evening. I am getting old. I spent my free Saturday night going to the gym, getting groceries, visiting with my other friend and playing scrabble. And the highlight? I was in bed by midnight. WOOT. Whatever, I slept in until 10:30! What time did YOU get up today? lol


Workout for Saturday
Lateral Raise 12.5lbs x 12 x 2
Lying Barbell Scap Depression 55lbs x 15 x 2
Seated Scap Depression 10 x 2
Face Pulls 80lbs x 12 x 2
Shoulder Rolls 10 x 2

Push Press 45/55/60/65/65 lbs x 3
Pull Ups 1 band x 6 x 3
Seated Cable Row 75lbs x 12 x 2
Incline DB Press 30lbs x 8 x 3
Poorboy Shoulder Horn 12lbs x 10 x 3

I realized today, that doing a workout after a massage may not have been the best idea. OWWIE!

Workout for Sunday

Glute activation and hip mobility work

Warm Up CDL 115/125 lbs x 5
CDL 145lbs x 5 x 3 *personal record
Leg Press 230lbs x 12 x 2
Bulgarian Squat (BB) 65lbs x 8 x 3
Downward Cable Chop 30lbs x 10 x 3

Yup. Imma gonna be sore tomorrow! My wrists actually have marks left from my wrist wraps.

Pigs in a blanket

Not much to report at this time. Yesterday was my grandpa's funeral. The service was nice, as far as funerals go. We were unable to stay too long afterwards, as Wes still had to go in to work. As it was, he went in 2 hours late.

I didn't make it to the gym on Thursday, since I had not seen Tay very much since last week. I was missing her and wanted to come home so I could see her for a bit before she went to bed. I was a little late coming home as it was, as I had to work a little late. Seeing as I missed 2 days of work this week and my co-worker is now on holidays, my boss has approved some overtime. I will take advantage of this since it doesn't happen often!

I did get to the gym on Wednesday and had a pretty good work out. I was a little dissappointed on Thursday that my legs weren't really sore, but DAMN! by yesterday I was sure feeling it!

Workout for Wednesday

Glute activation and hip mobility work

Front Squat 95/105/115/125/125lbs x 3
Pullthroughs 80/90/90lbs x 8
Bulgarian RDL 20lbs x 12 x 2
Standing Cable Crunch 60lbs x 10 x 3

Real Doodads

I hate daylight savings. I am tired, exhausted and drained. I wonder if I snored on the bus on the way in to work this morning?

We had a great weekend in Fernie. I actually think I may have gotten a little better at snowboarding. Now if I can only find someone to come with me again maybe I will actually IMPROVE! Wow, novel idea. The conditions were fantastic, it snowed all day on Saturday so falling in the powder was pretty minor. At least until it came time to try to get out, that proves to be a bit of a challenge. We did, however, get to bring Ryan up to the top of the mountain and spread his ashes. It was pretty emotional, but felt good to say goodbye in our own way.

My grandpa passed away this weekend. On Friday morning, Tay and I took a drive out to visit him in the hospital. My mom had called the night before and told me the doctors didn't expect him to make it through the weekend. I am glad I saw him. We didn't come home until Monday evening and he passed away Sunday afternoon. The funeral is on Friday.

I finally made it to the gym after work yesterday. It had been a week since I last trained and I needed it. Training has become somewhat of an addiction for me. I need to train. When I go too long without it, I get very crabby and depressed. It helps me to get rid of anger and frustration and all those bad feelings that brew inside. I will do whatever I can to squeeze some time in at the gym. I suppose there could be worse things to be addicted to, I just hope no one tries to pull an "intervention" on me! Ha ha!

Workout
Band pullaparts 15 x 2
Scap pushups 20 x 2
Behind the neck band pulldowns 15 x 2
Skull Crushers 12.5 lbs x 15 x 2

Bench Press 65/75/85/90/95lbs x 3
Bentover BB Row 85lbs x 6 x 3
DB Shoulder Press 17.5lbs x 12 x 2
Supinated Grip Lat Pulldown 75lbs x 8 x 3
Lateral Raises 12.5lbs x 10 x 3

Apocalyptic Desert

I am hesitant to get excited. The days are getting longer, the mornings are brighter and warmer and it smelled like rain this morning. But it is only the beginning of March, as any Albertan will tell you, you cannot put away the parka until June 1st. But the past couple mornings I have really enjoyed the little walks from the car to the bus, the bus to work. I can't wait to be able to get up early and sit outside and have a coffee. Putts around in my garden, pick a few weeds and enjoy the silence. Back in the day when I used to run, my favorite thing to do was to get up early and go for a long run, then come home and go back to sleep for a couple hours. Maybe someday I can do that again.

This weekend, Wes and I and a bunch of our friends are going to Fernie. My BFF has rented a gorgeous log house for all of us. The place sleeps 17, and I think there will be 11 in the house and 4 staying in town. This weekend, we will bring Ryan up the mountain one last time. Fernie is where Wes and Ryan and the rest of the boys, first fell in love with snowboarding. As such, all of the snowboarding boys and a few others will be in Fernie this weekend for one last run with Ryan. I am really excited about this, especially since I have a new snowboard and all new gear and I have friends that will ride with me, not to mention the gorgeous house we will be staying in. It has a hot tub, games room, 6 master bedrooms.... Insane! On the other hand, I suspect it will also be a bit of an emotional weekend for everyone as well. We are leaving Friday around noon, and coming home Monday evening. That means 4 days and no training and likely eating crap. I will do my bi-weekly measurements on Friday instead of my usual Sunday since I won't be able to while we are away. I doubt there will be a scale there and I don't really feel like packing mine in my suitcase. I am planning on bringing some oatmeal pancakes at the very least, but I am not going to stress about it. Plus, snowboarding is quite a leg workout! I went to the gym Monday and will not be able to go again until Friday. I get off work at 10 AM, then I will go to the gym, then come home and we will head out around noon. I had wanted to do at least 4 cardio sessions this week, to make up for the lack of workouts, but I am already behind on that. I went on Monday, but ended up having to work through my lunch yesterday, so I couldn't make it. I am hoping to get there today and do some HIIT.

Workout for Monday

Glute activation and Hip Mobility stuff

Warm up CDL 95/105lbs x 5
CDL 135lbs x 5 x 3 (I think I am actually ready to bump this up! YAY!!)
Leg Press 230lbs x 12 x 2
Bulgarian Squats (DB) 35lbs x 8 x 3
Saxon Side Bends (DB) 15lbs x 10 x 3

Discussion Circuses

Had a pretty good weekend. I have decided that my favorite day of the week is Sunday. I always go to the gym on Sunday and because I usually don't have to rush home, I can take my time there. I go to a different location on Sundays because it is closer to home then the gym I go to after work, so the people there are different and it is not overly busy. I just like it. Had a pretty darn good workout too.

Workout
Lateral Raises 10lbs x 12 x 2
Lying BB Protraction 45lbs x 12 x 2
Seated Scap Depressions BW x 10 x 2
Face Pulls 70lbs x 12 x 2

Push Press 45/55/60/65/65lbs x 3
Pull Up 1 band x 6 x 3
Seated Cable Row 75lbs x 12 x 2
Incline DB Press 30lbs x 8 x 3
Poor Boy shoulder Horn 10lbs x 15 x 2

Bulging Banger

I went to the gym last night, and I saw a woman deadlifting 155 lbs. I have never seen a woman deadlift more then 95 lbs; I have made it to 135 lbs. I know of women who can lift a whole lot more, but I have never seen it at any gym I have been to, until now. I usually prefer not to talk to anyone when I train. I avoid making eye contact so as to not give the impression that it is ok to approach me. It disrupts my zen. So, it was a pretty big deal for me to go up and compliment this woman on her deadlifts. The real kicker here is to look at her you would never have guessed she could lift that much. She was an asian lady in her early 40's, about 5'3'", trim, but nothing really special. She looked like a soccer mom. I thought she was cool. Unless she drives a mini van.

Anyway, I had a great workout. AND... can you believe I went and did cardio TWICE during my lunch this week, and it wasn't even all that bad.

Workout for Thursday

Glute activation and Hip mobility stuff

Front Squats 95/105/115/125/125 lbs x 3
Back Extensions 25lbs x 8 x 3 - finally figured out a way to rig this thing up to fit my miniturness
Leg Press 230 lbs x 12 x 2
Standing Cable Crunch 60lbs x 15 x 2

Absence Makes The Heart Grow Fonder

I know all of my dedicated followers, all 2 of you (lol), have been anxiously waiting for my next post. Well wait no more! Yeah, I'm a geek. It has been a pretty busy week actually. On Wednesday, Wes and I took Tay swimming after I got off work. We have set up a chore chart and she works towards her prize. She determines what the prize is, so this time it was swimming. Anyway, Wednesday also happens to be a training day for me as well, so I decided to go to the gym at the rec center after we were done swimming. Wow. What can I say? I really don't think I will ever train there again, and it was a great reminder why I quit going there years ago. The place was PACKED! A bunch of 18 - 19 years old guys struttin around, checking themselves out in the mirror, flexing, oogling the skinny-fat chick with head to toe lulu lemon and full make up.... I had the crappiest workout, I just wanted to get it done and get the hell out. Sure makes me appreciate the gym I go to now. Anyway, I digress....

Workout for Wednesday
Band Pullaparts 15 x 2
Scap Push Up 20 x 2
Behind Neck Band Pulldowns 15 x 2
Skull Crushers (DB) 12.5 lbs x 12 x 2

Bench Press 65/75/85/95/95 lbs x 3
Bent over BB Row 85/95/105lbs x 6
Standing DB Shoulder Press 15lbs x 12 x 2
Supinated Grip Lat Pulldowns 42.5kg x 8 x 3
Lateral Raise 10lbs x 10 x 3

I gots more to say, but will have to come back!

It is just a stupid number!

Welcome to Monday! I had a decent weekend, quiet but nice. Friday, Wes and I had the evening to ourselves as a friend asked if Tay could sleep over. We went to a sports bar for dinner and shared a jug of beer, then came home and hung out. It was nice. Sunday, I went to the gym then decided to look for a pair of jeans since I was told that the one and only pair I have is not overly flattering. I was pretty happy to find some good sales on and I ended up getting 2 pairs of cords and one pair of jeans. Well, actually I bought 2 pairs of jeans, but I am going to return one, because I am not totally happy with the fit. The one thing that kinda disturbed me a little was the size; size 7/8 and a 9? I know it is just a stupid number and that it really doesn't mean squat because they vary so much from store to store, but still! I am fairly happy with what I see in the mirror, but the fact that the tag on my jeans says size 9 instead of size 3 or 5, like it used to, seems to overshadow what I am looking at. Not to mention, when I see pictures of myself, I see someone so much bigger then I thought I was. It is starting to make me wonder how people see me and whether or not I really am that big after all? (Dare I say "huge" ) I keep trying to remind myself that while I may be larger in size, my shape is better, I am healthier and stronger. Grrr, I guess it still all comes down to being more consistent with my diet and putting on my big girl pants and doing cardio. Since the beginning of this journey I have lost 5.5 lbs and a total of 12 inches, so I suppose I cannot complain too much.


Workout for Friday

Lateral Raise 10lbs x 12 x 2
Lying BB Protraction 30lbs x 12 x 2
Shoulder Roll 12 x 2
Face Pulls 70lbs x 12 x 2

Push Press 45/55/60/65/65lbs x 3
Pull Ups 1 band x 5 x 3
Seated Cable Row 60lbs x 12 x 2
Incline DB Press 30lbs x 8 x 3
Poorboy Shoulder Horn 10lbs x 10 x 3


Workout for Sunday

Glute activation and Hip mobility stuff

Warm Up CDL 95/105lbs x 5
CDL 12lbs x 5 x 3
Leg Press 230lbs x 12 x 2
Bulgarian Squats (db) 35lbs x 8 x 3
Cable Twist 40 lbs x 10 x 3

Take Two!

Last night, my two BFs and I went to our first Chix on Stix snowboarding lessons. It was a lot of fun. I used to ride years ago, had my own gear and all, but I sucked. I only went a couple times a year, which was not enough to make any progress. Wes went with his friends fairly often and continued to get better and better, so even when we did go together, we would never ride together. I also did not have any friends who were interested in it either. Once Tay was born, I decided to just sell all my stuff. This past fall my friend approached me about joining Chix on Stix with her, I hesitated, but decided to go for it. What was $25 anyway? Then, I was suprised to find out another friend of mine was interested in learning to snowboard as well. So, the three of us all decided to learn together. It was a lot of fun and both my friends seemed to enjoy it, even though it was their first time with a board on their feet. We also met a couple other girls and will hopefully meet up with them on the hill sometime. So, here is take two of my attempt at snowboarding.

Back in the Saddle

So after 4 days of being pretty much completely off my diet, I am back on track. My headcold is pretty much gone, just a little congestion lingering and my energy is back up. Plus, I had a great workout yesterday and I did cardio! As long as I can stay consistent with my diet, and get a couple more cardio sessions in, I know I will start seeing a lot more results. I am already noticing more definition in my arms and butt and my abs are starting to look better, although they still require more work (diet will help that). I am feeling leaner too, not sure what the measurements are saying and maybe I don't want to know. I guess I will find out this weekend when I do my bi-weekly measurements/weigh in. Not much else to report .....

Workout

Glute Activation and Hip Mobility Work

Front Squat 85/95/10/115/115 lbs x 3
Back Extension 10 lbs x 8 x 3
Bulgarian RDL (DB) 15 x 12 x 2
Standing Cable Crunch 60lbs x 15 x 3

On to Phase Two

My head cold is manageable and I am dealing with it by keeping topped up with sinus meds. Sunday, I felt good enough to get to the gym and I did my first workout for Phase Two. It felt good, I felt strong and my shoulders were even sore yesterday, my shoulders never get sore!

Workout
Band Pull apart 12 x 2
Scap Push Up 20 x 2
Shoulder Roll 10 x 2
Behind Neck Band Pull down 12 x 2
Skull Crusher (DB) 10 x 12 x 2

Bench 65/80/90 lbs x 5
Bent over BB Row 65/80/95lbs x 6
Standing Shoulder Press 15lbs x 15 x 2
Supinated Grip Lat Pull down 75 lbs x 8 x 3
Poorboy shoulder horn 10 x 12 x 2

I'm Sick

Oiy, I seemed to have caught a brutal sinus cold. My head feels like my sinuses have tripled in size! I hope I can get rid of this thing by tomorrow otherwise I will not be able to get to the gym. Plus, I am supposed to go out with my girlie friends and I don't want to miss that!

My Luck is Running Out

Damnit, I am catching a head cold!

Note to self: Attempting to buy Valentine's 2 days before Valentines Day is futile. This is my first time at this, Taylor has school every Friday, so I went out last night to buy some Valentines to give to her classmates. Nothing. Not even one! I did not have time to actually MAKE them, so I ended up buying these little valentine boxes and putting a granola bar, hershey's kisses and a few party favors. It is just a pain, because you can't even bring home baked cookies because of allergies and crap. I would have just made heart shaped cookies otherwise.

And I had a bad night last night. I have been craving all the bad carbs like crazy this week. All I want is chocolate and toast. I ended up caving last night and had a mini binge of junk. Just had to get that out of my system I guess.

I also bought new snowboard, boots and bindings. Figured I would give this snowboard thing another shot. I have a couple friends now who are interested in learning and Wes seems to think that if I have better boots (my old ones made my feet cramp up BAD) and a proper board (I had a junior board before), that I may actually be better. I like how he makes excuses for me!

Had a good workout last night. It was my last workout for my deload phase; I will start phase 2 on Sunday.

Workout

Glute Activation and Hip Mobility stuff

RDL 115/125/135 x 5
Leg Press 270 lbs x 10 x 2
Split Squat 75 lbs x 12 x 2
Cable Cross Chop 30 x 10 x 2

Going to go to the gym at lunch today and do some HIIT. Gotta burn off all those carbs I ate yesterday!

Outside the Box Isn't That Bad

Last night, I met up with my friend at the gym, afterwards she came over to my place so we could visit more. I needed to eat, but I did not want to eat out, nor did I want to ruin my diet but, I also wanted to make something that she might like and preferably not just the same ol salad with chicken. I know how much she likes tacos and I had taken out some bison intending to cook it up with some taco seasoning. So, I came up with a "creation" that I tested out on her. I had some rice in the fridge as well, so I topped 1/2 cup of rice with 100g of bison with taco seasoning, then about 1/3 cup of cottage cheese, shredded head lettuce, sliced black olives and salsa. It tasted similar to a taco salad, minus the taco. I quite enjoyed it and so did my friend. In fact, afterwards she commented that she was so full and satisfied, she was having a hard time believing we just had something that was healthy, low fat, good protein and carbs. Which BTW, is also the making of a great post workout meal. Even Wes tried a bite and wasn't disgusted by it. It got me thinking that I think some people get so stuck on "normal" foods that the thought that something is good for you, or "diet" food, should be bland and not overly satisfying. The problem here is if you want to continue to eat well and make a lifestyle change, you have to find alternatives. If all you live off of is plain salad with no dressing and dry chicken breasts, there is no way you will be able to keep that up, which is generally how yo-yo dieting ends up.



My sister does not eat gluten or dairy, some would automatically assume that a piece of toast for breakfast or a sandwich for lunch is out of the question. Or that she would never be able to have ice cream ever again, or pancakes, cookies, cake..... One would end up living off of only fruit, veggies and meat! You just have to think outside the box and experiment. If you want to make a lifestyle change, it has to be one that you can see yourself sticking with, find some alternatives to your favorites. Heck you might even prefer it. Granted, it will likely take more work then going through a drive through, but hey, if it was easy there would be no such thing as obesity.


My 'creation' may not taste exactly like a taco salad, but it is pretty darn close. And you know what? My sister does eat ice cream, pancakes, toast and cake, the only difference is she doesn't go to a store or open a box to have it.


Well, as I mentioned at the beginning of my rant, I went to the gym yesterday....

Workout

Bentover Flyes 10lbs x 12 x 2
Lying BB Protraction 25lbs x 12 x 2
Seated Scap Depressions BW x 12 x 2
Face Pulls 70lbs x 12 x 2

Military Press 45/50/55 lbs x 5 x 3
Chin Ups 1 band x 5 x 3
Seated Cable Row 75 lbs x 8 x 2
Incline DB Press 25lbs x 12 x 2
Lateral Raise 10 x 12 x 2

Jumpin Jitterbug

meh, really couldn't think of a title....
Yesterday was my first day back to work from holidays. I am liking this job, so I didn't have that horrible dread when my alarm went off. As a bonus, my mom decided to keep Tay for the night, so I managed to get in an unexpected workout.

Workout

Hip Mobility/Glute Activation work

Full Squats 95/105/115 lbs x 5
DB High Step Up 25 lbs x 10 x 2 (the step could have been a little higher)
Pullthroughs 70 lbs x 12 x 2
Standing Cable Crunch 70 lbs x 15 x 2

Didn't get home until almost 8:30 pm as I had to wait over 30 minutes for the damn bus. That is one downfall of taking the bus all the way from the Park. After 6 o'clock, it only runs every half an hour instead of every 15 minutes. Sat up my butt in front of the TV and surfed the net. T'was a good evening, although went to bed too late.

It's Good to be Back

I had a great workout yesterday! I am doing a deload phase this week since I took last week off from training.

Workout

Band Pullaparts 12 x 2
Scap Push up 20 x 2
Behind Neck Band Pulldown 12 x 2
Skullcrusher (DB) 10 x 12 x 2

Bench Press 65/70/75 lbs x 5
Bentover BB Row 65/75/85 lbs x 5
Standing DB Shoulder Press 17.5 lbs x 8 x 2
Lat Pulldown 60 lbs x 12 x 2
Lateral Raise 10 lbs x 15 x 2

I even did 25 minutes on the treadmill! Ok, so it was just a brisk walk, but hey, I have to start somewhere. Plus, I did about 15 minutes of stretching which is just what my legs needed.

There is 2 months left in the challenge and I had better kick it into high gear. Of the 5 weeks so far, 2 have been close to a write off. Even so, I have not gained, but I am not losing either. I need to put more focus on getting cardio done more consistently, eating all my food for the day and drinking enough water.

As for cardio, I am going to make an effort to go during my lunch break at least 3 times a week, even if it is only for 20 minutes. I will aim for at least one HIIT session/week to start. The more I go to the gym, the more water I drink as well (as a rule), so this should also help boost my water intake. I also need to make a better effort to eat everything I am supposed to eat during the day. I have a tendency to forget to eat, or just choose not to because it doesn't really appeal to me and I am not overly hungry. I need to eat to increase my hunger. Sounds warped I know but, the more often you eat, the more your metabolism will speed up; therefore burning more fat, which is what I am wanting. I am tired of looking puffy, I want to be able to see my muscles! I realized yesterday, while I was at the gym, that the reason I think I look good while I workout is because my muscles are pumped, so you can actually see them. When I am not in the gym, I feel like I just look larger and puffy, because you can't see the muscle to know that my size is not fat, but actually muscle mass.

Time in the Desert

Tay and I are home! We had a great trip to Phoenix, despite being delayed a day. 2 o'clock Saturday morning Tay woke up barfing. I have anxiety issues flying alone with Tay as it is, yet alone when she is yaking every 20-30 minutes. We ended up rebooking to fly out on Sunday, at a cost of $535. Not overly impressed, but worth it to see my sis. Although, I am not too sure how impressed she was when we managed to contaminate her entire family with the flu. Sorry Kim!

We went for walks almost daily and we managed to turn those into cardio sessions with the kids demanding that we run up and down the hills while pushing the double strollers. My sister is a fantastic cook, and quite creative in the kitchen. I would highly recommend that you check out her blog, if you have not done so yet. She has some great gluten and dairy free recipes. I am not sure Tay was as appreciative as I was with the variety, she seems to be a much pickier eater then I ever expected. I am pretty sure she lost weight in the 6 days we were there.

My sister is amazing. I have a whole new respect for her. She is a fantastic mother and it boggles my mind how she manages to keep her sanity with three kids. I can barely keep it together with one! I only wish we lived closer.

Here are a few pix of our holiday....

Tay and Rori in the hammock swing

Tay and Sage sleeping in the stroller after a heavy duty walk. You'd think they were the ones pushing the stroller, running up and down the hills

Tay helping Justus with a drink.

My sister, Tay, Sage and Justus having a picnic in the desert.

Our picnic spot.

Leaving on a Jet Plane

Tomorrow, Tay and I are heading to Phoenix! Very excited to spend a week with my sister.

Diet has been good, water intake has been good, workouts have been great. Except last night I popped something in my shoulder. Not really sure how I did it seeing as I was working lower body. It happened during my warm up while I was doing some glute activation stuff. Must have just moved it weird. It hurts to lift my arm today, so I have been massaging it with a tennis ball and doing some stretches. My knees have been hurting as well, I suspect patella tendinitis. So, it is probably a good thing I am taking a break from the gym next week. I will do some stretching and prehab work and hopefully things will feel better when I get back.

Met my friend at the gym last night. She couldn't stay for the whole workout, but I continued after she left. I even did cardio, can you believe that? I wanted to do more, but my knee was starting to bother me more and my legs were pretty tired from the workout. But I did manage to get about 30 minutes in.

Workout

Hip Mobility and Glute Activation stuff

Full squats 95/105/115/125/135lbs x 5
DB High Step Ups 25lbs x 8 x 3
Pullthroughs 70 x 12 x 2
Standing Cable Crunch 70 x 10 x 3

Getting Better

Starting to feel a little better. May have something to do with the fact that I am on holidays next week, so only one more work day!!! Tay and I leave on Saturday to visit my sister in Phoenix for a week. I am looking forward to it. It will be nice to get away for a bit and Tay is excited about seeing her cousins and going on a plane. Diet is going pretty good as well and I am not too concerned about falling off the wagon while I am at my sisters; they eat pretty damn good. I will bring some protein powder and will likely stop at a grocery store once we get there a pick up a few other things. The only thing I am going to be unable to continue, is my workouts. So, I am going to use this time as a break, do some prehab work while I am there, and hopefully some walking/hiking for cardio. When I get back, I will start a deload program for a week, then move to my phase 2 program. Definitely noticing a difference in my appearance. My stomach is flatter and my pants are a little looser in the thighs. And if I stand in just the right light and at just the right angle, you can see a 6 pack trying to emerge. Unfortunately, there is still too much insulation over top to be certain; one could argue that you are just seeing my rolls! Anyhoo, had a great workout last night. My bench press is getting better. The weight is not going up yet, but I feel more controlled during my lift, I figure in a couple weeks I may actually be able to increase the weight. Going to the gym tonight, hopefully, my friend will be able to join me. I like to torture her, and she keeps coming back! hehehe

Workout
Face Pulls 60lbs x 15 x 3
Scap Push Up BW x 20 x 2
Pulldown Scap Depressions 60lbs x 12 x 2
Tricep Pushdown 60lbs x 12 x 2


Bench Press 45/55/65/75/85lbs x 5
Bentover BB Row 55/65/75/85/95 x 5
DB Shoulder Press 20 x 8, 22.5 x 8 x 3 (did the first set with 20lbs, then went up to 22.5lbs for the last 2)
Lat Pulldown 75 x 12 x 2
L-Lateral Raise 10 x 15 x 2



Some smart ass caught my attention during my bench and asked if I wanted the 45lbs plates added. In case you didn't know, 45s on a bar is 135lbs. I can't wait for the day that I can say, "yes please, if you don't mind"



And just in case myself or anyone else needed a wee bit of motivation, here is a great motivating pic!

The Dash

The Dash

byLinda Ellis

I read of a man who stood to speak

At the funeral of a friend

He referred to the dates on her tombstone

From the beginning to the end.

He noted that first came the date of her birth

And spoke the following date with tears,

But he said what mattered most of all

Was the dash between those years.

For that dash represents all the time

That she spent alive on earth.

And now only those who loved her

Know what that little line is worth.

For it matters not how much we own;

The cars, the house, the cash,

What matters is how we live and love

And how we spend our dash.

So think about this long and hard.

Are there things you’d like to change?

For you never know how much time is left,

That can still be rearranged.

If we could just slow down enough

To consider what’s true and real

And always try to understand

The way other people feel.

And be less quick to anger,

And show appreciation more

And love the people in our lives

Like we’ve never loved before.

If we treat each other with respect,

And more often wear a smile

Remembering that this special dash

Might only last a little while.

So, when your eulogy is being read

With your life’s actions to rehash

Would you be proud of the things they say

About how you spent your dash?

This was read by a family member at the funeral. I liked it so much, I wanted to share it with everyone. Something to think about....

Stuck on a Speed Bump

I am working on getting back on track, but it is hard. I feel somewhat guilty for 'getting back to normal' because I know it will be a long long time before my friend will ever feel normal. I am a little suprised at how much this is affecting me. I have experienced loss before, but I suppose this may have been the closest to home. I have known Ryan for as long as I have known Wes and my BF and Ryan have been together just as long as Wes and I have. Every time I see a picture of Ryan, or think about him, I get upset. I cannot begin to imagine how my friend is feeling, since it is so much harder for her to avoid those reminders when they are every where she is. My anxiety has been getting worse and I am thinking I may have to go and get a refill for some Ativan. I have not had to take those in months and months, but I took one prior to the funeral on Friday. Granted, I was reading the eulogy. I have been avoiding taking more since then, but seeing as I will be traveling alone with Tay in a few days, I am concerned I may need some. I don't want to be stuck away from home and end up having a major anxiety attack.

I weighed myself this morning..... not impressed. I suppose I should have expected it, considering all the crap I have been eating and alcohol I have been drinking. I am up 3.5 lbs since my last weigh in, which was 2 weeks ago. Most likely it is just water/bloat, and will likely drop again once I start eating better. I did get to the gym yesterday, and had a good workout. I am going to try to get there at lunch today to do some cardio, but I will have to see how my work load is. Until then, here is my workout from yesterday....


Workout

Warm Up: Glute activation and hip mobility stuff

RDL 95/105/115/125/135lbs x 5
Leg Press 270 lbs x 8 x 3
Split Squat 75lbs x 12 x 2
Cable Cross Chop 15/20 lbs x 15

I finally got groceries, and had a chance to cook up a bunch of chicken last night. 2 o'clock in the morning I was woken up to the smell of my chicken cooking in the crockpot.

Doing What I Can

Phew, the past few days have been a blur. Sleep deprived, physically and emotional exhausted. I have been spending the last few days at my friends house as she does not want to be alone, which is totally understandable; the nights seem to be the hardest. She is doing remarkably well, but I worry about what will happen after the funeral when everyone goes home. It is easy to not have to think when there are friends and family around. Wes is hanging in there as well. Saturday was a rough one, with lots of tears all around, but it was good to be with our friends. Even though there were a lot of tears, there have been a lot of laughs as well. Looking through pictures and telling stories has been helping many cope with this tragedy.

I did manage to get to the gym yesterday, which was much needed and felt great. Anger over the circumstances is great fuel for a workout. Diet has been a lost cause. Last night was the first night I slept in my own bed, and even at that, I didn't get home until nearly 9pm. I have had no time to replenish my chicken supply or chuck out the rotting salad fixings, or really do anything as far as food goes. And honestly, I am not sure when I will get a chance to stock up my supplies. However, my appetite has been minimal so I haven't been worrying too much about the crap I have been eating. There are some times, where worrying about calories and macros just doesn't seem important. As soon as I can get back on track, I will. Until then, I will do the best I can.

I think I may have missed posting a workout from last week.... Oh well, here is yesterday's;

Bent Over Flyes 10 x 12 x 3
Lying 1 arm DB Protractions 20 x 20 x 2
Pulldowns 75 x 12 x 2
Scap Push Up BW x 20 x 2

Military Press 45/50/55/60/60lbs x 5
Chin Ups 1 band x 5 x 5
Seated Row 90 x 8 x 3
Incline DB Press 27.5 lbs x 12 x 2
Poorboy Shoulder Horn 10 x 12 x 3

A Lesson in the Alphabet

A is for Avalanche that took the life of Wes's best friend yesterday.

B is for my Best friend, who is a new widow.

C is for Colon and also for Cancer, of which Wes's mom recently overcame, but now her boyfriend has been diagnosed.

D is for Death, and frankly I am sick of it.

RIP Ryan.

I Can See Clearly Now the Rain is Gone

Ok, ok ok.... Wonder Woman is a super hero, and there is no such thing as super heros, so no point trying to be one! Sometimes, I need a reminder, thanks to my mom and sister for that. I feel much better today. I decided I was just too grumpy and miserable to even bother trying to get anything done, so I went to bed with Tay last night at 7:30. I need to do that once in a while. Didn't do cardio, didn't put laundry away, didn't do the dishes and didn't even give Tay a bath! I got home from work, said goodbye to Wes as he walked out the door, then spent the next hour or so playing with Tay in her playroom.

I did manage to get to the gym at lunch today and do a bit of cardio and I am heading back there after work to do my weights. As a bonus, Tay's dayhome called and asked if Tay could sleep over tonight and since Wes doesn't have to work tonight, we will actually get to spend some much needed time together. I think the plan is to go out for dinner, now I just have to make sure I make some smart choices from the menu. Hmmm, I wonder if a burger, fries and beer could be squeezed in.

Trying to be Wonder Woman

I am frustrated today. My co-worker has been away sick for the past 2 days, so I have had to pick up some of her duties. I actually don't mind, I like to stay busy, but within reason. However, this is still a fairly new position for me, so I am not totally confident in my work. Of course I keep running into anomalies, which for someone who has been here long enough, would be no biggie, but it just seems like nothing is straight forward today. As a result I am falling behind and the work keeps piling up. For the past two days, I have wanted to go to the gym at lunch and do cardio, but I have been too busy to take a lunch. I find it frustrating because then I feel like I have to make up those cardio sessions later this week and my week is already full as it is (as it always is). Since Wes works tonight, going to the gym is not an option, so I will have to do cardio at home. Not my preference that is for sure. I have a ton of other things that I need to do eventually, sleep being only one of them. Laundry to put away, chicken to be cut up, weighed and packaged, meatloaf to be packaged, dinner dishes to clean up, plus all the regular stuff that goes along with trying to get Tay bathed, teeth brushed, jammies on and get her to sleep. Sometimes, I just wish I could come home and park my butt on the couch and do nothing all evening, except watch TV. But the guilt would kill me, I am sure. How do people do it? Sometimes it feels like I am expected to be Wonder Woman or something. Not sure who expects this, but I often feel like a failure because I am not.

Ran Over by the Wagon Wheel

That damn Wagon Wheel finally got me. I think it sent out initial attacks with Ritz Bits with cheddar, and pudding.... I was doing so well, and then I tripped and found myself snacking on Tay's crackers and pancakes and pudding.... Then, I was tackled by the Wagon Wheel. I do so well during the week, but once the weekends come around I tend to fall apart. I have found that I am much more productive when I have a structured day, like work days. Weekends are less structured so I never seem to get moving or get much done. As a result, I tend to slack on the water consumption, which leads to missing meals, which leads to mindless snacking. I need to figure out how to get more structure in my weekends, but still feel like I am getting a break....

My Oatmeal Pancakes

The hardest meal for me to eat clean has got to be breakfast. I prefer a savory breakfast, not a sweet one, yet it seems most breakfast recipes are sweet. I also hate eggs and egg whites in particular, or anything that tastes like them. That doesn't really leave very many options. I have come up with an oatmeal pancake recipe that I love. Even though it is sweet, I still like eating this almost daily. Tay even likes them.

In a blender or food processor combine;

• 1/3 cup cottage cheese,
• 1/3 oatmeal and
• 3 egg whites.
• Sweeten to your preference. Whether you use sugar, splenda, agave nector, it doesn't really matter.

Add

• 1/2 tsp cinnamon and
• 1/2 tsp vanilla.

Continue to mix until everything is smooth. Pour out pancakes onto hot griddle, sprayed with Pam. Cook on med-low. Flip when bottom is golden brown. You can eat them with your choice of syrop, regular or SF, fruit preserves etc. I really like to top mine with natural almond and hazelnut butter and SF syrop. Or, natural peanut butter and sugar free jam, then roll them up. Wrap in tinfoil or plastic wrap and you have a portable snack. This is how Tay likes them.

My family

Tay and Mommy at the Sun's Kids Christmas Party. This is 2 days after we go back from Mexico, which explains the tans.

Tay and Daddy. Wes is the best dad I have ever met. Tay is very lucky.

Footloose and Fancy Free

Wes and I have been together since I was 16, since we were both so young, neither of us ever did the 'single' thing. We never dated, or lived on our own. I lucked out and found a great guy and from the stories I hear from my single girlfriends, there are not many like him out there. So, I have never really felt like I was ripped off in the dating scene. I have always said, "I know what I have and I am not willing to sacrifice losing that, just to do the whole dating/single thing." But, I have to admit, I like my alone time. So, when Wes goes snowboarding for the weekend, I really don't have a problem with it, and often encourage it. Yesterday, I lucked out in that Wes's mom wanted to have Tay for the night. I had already arranged for Tay to go over there for the afternoon so that I could get to the gym and pick up groceries, so it was definitely a nice bonus to have the entire evening free as well! WOOHOO! Let's go dancing! Nope, even better then that! I layed in bed, watching TV and reading magazines then I went to sleep! I am willing to bet that most women who are married with children would agree that the latter is much more appealing. Sad, but true. I had a fantastic day yesterday; I had a great work out, did some cardio and stretching, then I went and spent too much time and too much money at the grocery store (all good stuff though). After the groceries were put away, I made a bite to eat, cleaned the kitchen, then plopped myself down and vegged for the rest of the night. It was great! Grandma should be bring Tay home around noon. I miss her and am anxious to see her. I like my time alone, but I miss my time with my family.

Workout

Warm Up
Glute activation and hip mobility stuff

RDL 95/105/115/125/135 lbs x 5
Leg press 270 lbs x 8 x 3
Split Squat 75 x 12 x 2
Cable Cross Chop 25 lbs x 10 x 3

Feeling Good

Thinking back to yesterday, I think it turned out to be a very encouraging day. Despite two social get togethers, both of which have the potential to be fairly high calorie events, I was able to stick with my plan and not once did I feel cheated. I had a 'healthy' potluck lunch at work that was actually pretty decent. As I mentioned in my previous post, I made Asian Chicken Salad, and it was a hit. It turned out so good, I will definitely be making that again. Previous office 'food days' were usually filled with high fat, high sugar delights, but yesterday turned out really good. We had cold tomatoe soup (homemade), my salad, fruit tray, veggie tray, cheese and crackers, and sherbet for dessert. I am not a sherbet (or ice cream) fan, so I didn't have any, but at least I know a dish I can bring for future potlucks that is on plan. So even if there isn't anything else I can eat, I can at least have that. I also met up with my friend at the gym, then we went for dinner, then coffee. We took our time at the gym, chatted a lot, then went to Mongolie Grill. I love that place, because I can pick whatever I want in my stir fry, so I loaded it with chicken, scallops and veggies. It was so good. At Starbuck's I discovered a new treat; SF Caramel, NF Americano Misto. It is heaven in a cup, and sin free! (for the most part). Anyhoo, here is my workout for yesterday, Friday, January 9, 2009:

Warm Up
Bent over flyes 10 lbs x 12 x 3
Lying 1 arm scap protraction 20 lbs x 20 x 2
Pulldown 70 lbs 10 x 2
Scap push ups BW x 20 x 2

Military press 45/50/50/55/55 lbs x 5
Chin Ups I band x 5 x 5
Seated Cable Rows 80 lbs x 8 x 3
Incline DB press 25 lbs x 12 x 2
Poor boy shoulder horn 12.5 lbs x 10 x 2

lil of this, lil of that

Ahhhhh, it is finally Friday. This week seemed long. I guess being the first 5 day week in almost a month would feel long. Things are going well. I took an unscheduled rest day yesterday. I had wanted to do my yoga video last night, but I had to make a salad for a potluck lunch at work. By the time I finished making the salad, and cleaning up the kitchen, it was 10 pm and I still had to eat something. I just don’t understand how people have time to follow a TV series. I have not turned the TV on this whole week. Every evening is full with getting Tay to bed, working out, prepping meals, cleaning up…… We have PVR and I used to always record all these shows I wanted to watch, but I never got around to watching them. After a year of them sitting on our PVR, unwatched, I finally deleted them. Priorities I guess, but some days all I want to do is plant my butt on the couch and channel surf.

I almost caved last night. Tay was packing her lunch for her first day of pre-school (which is today), and she pulled out the box of Wagon Wheels. She decided against a Wagon Wheel and left the damn thing on the counter. It haunted me. Every time I looked over, that is all I saw. I even check out the counts, just to see if it was possible to squeeze in. Ultimately, I decided against it. I knew I was hungry; it had been too long since my last meal, so I had some soup instead.

I am going to the gym tonight with one of my bestest friends. Afterwards, we are going to go out for dinner, somewhere healthy. She is watching her weight too, so that makes it easy to decide on a place to eat. I am looking forward to it; we haven’t seen each other in a while. Sometimes, January is nice. Everyone has their diet plans, which usually fall by the way side by mid-February. Today, at work we are having a “healthy” potluck lunch; which is nice, since there won’t be any junk to tempt me. I decided to make something I could eat, so I decided to make an Asian Chicken Salad. Other things that will be there include; veggies and dip, fruit, another salad, ‘almost’ FF tomato soup, and sherbet. I am kinda excited about it!

I have also joined a ski/snowboard club for women. My bestest friend from above, talked me into joining Chix on Stix. It is a way to meet other women who are learning the sport, so that we can all ride together. I have been snowboarding for about 9 years, and I suck. Suck. Very. Bad. I never had anyone to go with. Wes snowboards and we used to go together once or twice a year, but that is about all I ever went. He went with his friends more often and in general is just way more athletic then I ever will be, so he has become really good at it. For me, it is hard to make any gains when you only go a couple times a year. Then I got pregnant and I never had the time to go, so I sold all my stuff. Now I have a friend who is interested in trying it out, and since I suck so bad, I may as well learn all over again with her. Hmmm, maybe I can go on snowboard trips over the weekends now….. I just had to throw that in since Wes is leaving tomorrow morning to go snowboarding with a friend for the weekend. Lol

I am looking forward to this weekend somewhat. Tomorrow, Wes’s mom is going to meet me at Tay’s gymnastics class and take Tay for the afternoon. That will give me a chance to get to the gym and get groceries. Going to the gym and grocery shopping is, as far as I am concerned, the makings for a great afternoon. So, I am looking forward to the time to myself. Afterwards, I will pick up Tay and we girls will hang out for a bit until it is bed time. I just have to remember to bring some food along with me when I go out Saturday afternoon, otherwise I may end up grumbling…. Don’t want that.